Although I'm all for the old 80's songs, I intend for my Monday to be NOT quite so manic. Here's hoping.
Today begins a few new things for me. This is the first day of making some pretty big cuts from my diet. In an attempt to see if some of my panic issues are food/drink related I am going to do a sort of "elimination diet" where I basically pare down to the bare essentials and then slowly add back in certain things to see what triggers my chest pains/shallow breathing.
I am terrified (which is kinda counterproductive...).
Why, you ask? Well.....what if it's coffee???
Let me rephrase that. I am certain that part of it is coffee. How do I know this? Because today is day seven of no medication and my 6AM morning coffee (only one cup) is still making my chest hurt and my breathing shallow (and it's almost 9..). I had decided that I could still have a cup in the morning, I just couldn't sip continually on the sweet black nectar all day long....but I think I was wrong. (she says as a tear slips down her face...)
I've had a few concerned friends and bloggy-friends ask why I felt the need to get off my medication, so I should say that I am not anti-medication. If I can't control this with diet and lifestyle changes I will be back on medication before you can say "Amy can have all the coffee she wants when she's medicated.....". Just not the particular medication I was on before. I like my eyesight too much to go through that again.
Today is also the first time I will be singing at our new church. I say "new", even though we've been there for over a year. Tonight is our Mocha Monday women's meeting and I will be singing special music (something about that sentence makes me crack up a little). I like to sing, sometimes I feel the NEED to sing, but there is always the fear of it being like a bad American Idol audition. PRAY FOR ME.
What's in store for your Monday? Will it be manic or mundane?
"wish it was Sunday. Cuz that's my fun day. When I don't have to run day. It's just another manic Monday" at least that what I think it is lok
ReplyDeleteI'm here with you - praying for you every step of the way.
ReplyDeletePraying for ya!
ReplyDeleteI'm praying that God will help you as you work through the food issues. Tough stuff. Gail
ReplyDeletePraying for you and this season of life. Know that God is bigger and will carry you through.
ReplyDeleteI've had panic attacks before and I will definitely be praying for you during this journey to find out what is causing it.
ReplyDeleteBlessings to you (and praying for you)!