Empty for Words

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.  This is true of you and I.  My time away from you has made me miss you.  Again our life has been filled with chaotic beauty, and again I have found myself in need of community but intentionally avoiding it.  I wonder if one day I will figure out the "why" behind my strange inclination to hibernate JUST when I really need to come into the sun.

For a while I thought I was done.  I would sit in front of this computer trying to find some thought in my head that I could put into words on a screen and none would come.  It didn't feel like writer's block so much as being empty.  Just empty of words. 

I think sometimes we do need to shut up for a while.

I was empty for words, but so full of God.  So, even though the description above sounds depressing and sad, it was not.  I was avoiding social media, but it was because for the first time in a long time I didn't feel like I needed it.  I rely too much on this virtual world and forget that the real world is where God has me. 

A sermon my husband preached a few weeks ago has really made me start thinking through things in a different light.  (you can listen here if you like.  It's titled The Gospel)  It sort of rebooted my brain into actual thinking again.  I know that may sound strange, but I have been in a strangely blank state for a while.  I like to blame it on the medication.  Then, after the horrific shooting in Colorado my mind began swirling with what could only be something I was supposed to write about.  Different ideas kept shooting through my brain and I was finding it hard to concentrate on anything else.  I found myself praying "OK, Lord.  I get it.  I will write this down!" 

All this rambling to say this:  I have missed you.  I look forward to a renewed blogging spirit and renewed purpose in encouraging you guys along your journey.  I know you always encourage me in mine.